Upon walking home from the pharmacy I took my usual walk path thru a field between 2 factory's. My thoughts were wandering AGAIN on what I can do to find housing in 7 days with no job, no vehicle, no money, no help, no nothing; when I heard the crunching of leaves, I look over expecting to see an animal and instead I see half naked man in the bushes squatting over the ground reaching for a handful of leaves. Of course I quickly turn my head away from him before he sees me, and I keep it turned pretending not to see him until I was out of the field. As I continue walking to the home I'm about to be kicked out of in 7 days, making this my 4th home I 've been evicted from in the last 16 months, my mind started racing...when my mind starts it just doesn't stop.
Welcome into my mind for the next few minutes.....
Oh my GOD! please LORD don't let that man know that I saw him, please help me to be safe, please don't let that man chase me down and hurt me because maybe he knows that I saw him.
Oh that poor man, he must be homeless. Maybe he is drunk, no I bet he is sick and couldn't make it home before he had to take a s**t. Was he going to the bathroom? Is this what I'm gunna have to do in 7 days?
I wonder if I can live in this cemetery, I wonder if I can find a little cement building in this cemetery to live in?
No I can't do that it's not legal and besides what would I do with Frankie (My little dog)? I'm never gunna get out of this rut I'm in.
I wish people could really see how the world is. I wonder if I write the president could he help me? Does he really give a damn if there are homeless people using bushes as bathrooms?
These are not the obvious homeless people these are often people that are stuck in ruts and can't get help from a damn soul, and end up trying to stretch a dollar just to get a roll of toilet paper.
Of course you can get a roll of toilet paper for .79 cents and have a bit of change left to apply towards tobacco.
Society shuns smokers, don't they understand tobacco is a drug and when you are stressing about how you can keep a roof over your family's head, and how you can get a job with a much misunderstood police record on your shoulders, no vehicle to move with...or even live in for a while, that you need more and more of that drug.
I need to take my camera and snap pictures of the real world we are living in and write the "RAW TRUTH" about our wonderful United (ha!) States.
Oh my GOD, there is a little boy playing in the middle of the street, he can't be more then 2 years old. Oh wait, he's walking over to be with a bunch of other kids. I wonder where their parents are?
I bet they are out working and can't afford child care so they leave the kids to watch each other.
See no one can really truly understand what it's like to live in today's world.
YEP, I'm going to find it all and share it with the world so that they can see the people as they really are....as they really struggle, it will be nothing more then the "Raw Truth".
Well, I warned you. All those crazy thoughts raced thru my mind within 5 minutes (Welcome to the mind of a ADD/ADHD/Bi-Polar person ) and I was finely home...Or at least home for the next 7 days.
So from this/that day forward I will make sure everyone knows what really happens behind overlooked lives.
Thus that was the birth of my....."Raw Truth"
Anyone who might read this please bare in mind I don't really pay attention to punctuation so if you find it a bit hard to read...I'm sorry.
I am only going to express my/or others opinions so anyone who might be sue happy, I'm sorry I can't help you because even a penny in my pocket is a fortune.
Please stay tuned while I get the hang of blogging, I have quite a few exciting story's to share but going to the library to type them in is a bit time consuming.
GOD Bless all!!!!
